More bad verse!

I am not particularly proud of these poems written sometime in 1969 - 70.

In Desperation

dying embers

of a super nova

that cracked up a billion years ago

do not warm up

the cold loneliness

of my days

and the sun

never rises

in the empire

of my heart

after i realized

that the experts

have written the program

with my blood

and without you.

The Absurd

Essence

existence

and the absurdity

in between

  

if zero

 is nothing

what then

is infinity

to live

and not

to know

is not to live

let me live

and commit

suicide

not murder

This was written based on personal experience. May not be good poetry, but of great sentimental value, because the friend referred to here, died in 1985.

disillusionment with a Trotskyite intellectual

the way you started off –

(i thought

you had a sword upstairs)

i wanted to go with you

but

you and i were shedding tears

over large pegs of rum and coke

and the thought of hungering masses

made you order some more chips

you and I believed in the printed word

mail order sales and the celluloid gods

you and (therefore) i were anasthetized

into an omniscient impotence

i would have gone with you

even if you had set out

to fight windmills with lances

but

did you

Another poem written in 1975, when I was 26 years of age, and thought I knew most of what is required to be known. I have grown older now and know better. I have given up cigarettes, for instance.

Thanks to Kurt Vonnegut Jr.

somewhere far away from here

a mad guy committing suicide

slowly and in comfort (he told me so)

with filtered cigarettes,

identified my nightmares

domesticated my terrors

and turned me a voyeur to the self

thanks to him

i learnt a few tricks

i get my thrills watching me perform

thanks to him

i have taken to cigarettes

(slowly and in comfort).

I am proud of this short poem, though I suspect it may not be all that original. I do not remember clearly, but I have read the last line somewhere. Here goes:

" this might be blasphemy

but you cannot deny it.

the Man they nailed on Calvary

did have connections.

In High Places."